Good morning everyone,

It occured to me this morning that most of you don't know much or anything at all about me. I have been writing about prayer/mediatation but I want to make something perfectly clear I am NO EXPERT. Nor is my attention to shove my opinion down your throat. I do not believe that my religion is the best nor the only way to go. Infact, I would like to believe I am very open minded. I do however believe there is only one God, but worshiped in many different ways. I have respect for every religion and I hope I am never ignorant enough to offend anyone. Regardless, the point of this message is this, my writings are based solely on my beliefs and what has worked for me. It is a constant struggle for me to be good. I can not tell you how many times I have wished for a slight hole on my cubicle wall just big enough for my hand to go through just so I can reach over and grab the neck of the person next to me and bang her against the wall until she shuts up. Now I tell you does that sound holy to you, I think not. But when I realize what I am thinking my stomach turns with repulsion. I am no better than that person and she/he is no better than me. Education wise, street savey, things like that we differ on, somethings I am weaker than that other people and in somethings I am stronger but in NO WAY AM I BETTER THAN ANYONE. If anything I am ashamed of myself and my thoughts. We no matter, race, sexuality, gender, or whatever are ALL CHILDERN OF GOD and should all give each other the same respect we want for ourselves. And it is a difficult task. I find that the better I try to become the worst I am. If I say Dear God help me with patience today I find something will happen where I get so mad I think I will self combust. So back to the drawing board I go.

Life is a challenge. Do not beat yourself up for past mistakes. Make a mistake, learn from it an move on. Understand perfection is only an opinion. What may be the perfect shrit in your opinion may be awful for someone else. Lame example, but you get what I mean.

If anyone is offended by my writings well that was never my intentions but then again you have a choice to read it or not it is not my job to tell you what to do or to believe in. However, if anyone out there struggles with faith and can find comfort in something I have written then Fantastic!

If I encourage just one person it would mean....... In prayer there is power. There are alot of people out there who at one point in there lives lived comfortable and now are struggling to just put food on the table. We have lost loved ones or worst seen loved ones wither up into the shadow of the person they used to be and then die. Some of us have childern and the risk of something bad happening is very real. There are games like the choking game, and kids getting high off cold meds and serial killers, ect. Once our kids leave the safty of there abode all we can do is pray they listened and have good judgement and as much as I hate to admit it it is up to them to do the right thing.

We all need to pray, not just for ourselves and for our families but general prayers also for those we don't know. Pray that our kids meet the good and just people and not the molesters. Pray for the safty of our police officers and firefights, doctors and priests and those in the military as these are the people who risk their lives for us.

Love, love, love that is the message of Jesus and what I strive to do(although I constantly fail miserably).

I wish you all a good day. May you find comfort in God and know that all good things come from him. May the blessings I wish on myself and loved ones also be on you.